Finding Time to Write Part II

Back when I first started this blog, I had a post on Finding Time to write. This past week has been one of those times when it’s been hard to find time. Part of it is me, I seem to run very much in spurts when it comes to creativity. There are certain times of day I can just sit down and go. It just flows, and I think “Oh man, this is cake to write, I’m so frigging awesome.” Those times always seem to be in the 9-11 am time frame. I’m a morning writer. I just am. At night, as it is now when I write this, I can write, but it doesn’t work well. I don’t know if it’s because I’m just tired after dealing with dayjob (IT) issues, or what, but it doesn’t just flow. Things are harder to hammer out, and thus I find myself doubting myself, and really self editing and censoring myself.

Halfway through this week, I realized I wasn’t going to get as much writing as I wanted done this week. I felt like I had let myself down, and in many ways I still do. My goal is to get this first draft done of CANITUS by the end of May. I think I can still make that, but it’s going to be harder now. I’ve been beating myself up on this all week. It wasn’t that I didn’t get ANY writing done, I did. But not as much as I normally do by far. In addition the fact that what I did write, I’m already not happy with. This as far as writing goes, has not been a good week.

But today I had a thought, and I’m going to stick with it.

It’s OK that I didn’t get as much done on the book this week as I wanted to.

It’s OK.

It’s OK because simply I wasn’t being lazy, I didn’t decided to hang out and watch movies, or video games, or organize my half of the closet.

It’s OK because I was busy with my dayjob, that as much I wish I could support myself and my family on writing, pays the bills.

It’s OK because I was helping my kids with end of the year school projects.

It’s OK because I also played with my kids, went went swimming, I had more than a few lightsaber battles with my son, and more than one cooking and tasting adventure with my daughter.

It’s OK because one evening, I walked away from the computer, and watched a movie with my wife and fell asleep early.

It’s OK.

I was being all those other things than a writer. I was being a father, a husband, an IT manager, and generally a person trying to balance everything.

I love to write. More than I ever expected. I came to this late, but I very much enjoy it. It’s part of who I am, but it’s not ALL I am.

And that.. is OK 🙂

Finding Time to write is important. Vitally. But so is finding time for the people in your life, and unless your blessed to make a living at it, working that day job to support those people, and your writing.

Next week is shaping up to be far better for writing. I won’t be short staffed, and the new boss is backing off some. I’ll make up the time I lost, and should still be on track.

Finding time to write doesn’t for me at least, mean sacrificing the rest of my life. And for me, It’s OK.

Joshua
Father, Husband, IT Manager, and author. Currently Working on Bridgefinders, a modern day fantasy novel.